I don’t know if I fully agree with what you’re saying. Is it pathetic to love someone who doesn’t love you? Isn’t that the definition of unconditional love? That even though he was an asshole at the end, I still love him.

Believe me, my life would be so much easier if I had the ability to turn off my love like a light switch. If I could cut unhealthy people out of my life like a surgeon removing a cancer. But I’m not that person. I feel everything very deeply. That’s great when what I’m feeling is love. It sucks when it is pain.

I totally appreciate your opinion though. Maybe that works for some people. It’s just not me. I wish I could just label him a jerk and never look back. But the truth is that he isn’t a jerk or trash. He was a guy trying to find a way to be happy in a world that is full of pain. While I don’t think it’ll work (if you aren’t happy with your life then change your life, not your girlfriend) I can’t be angry at him for trying. Especially because for 8 years he was the perfect boyfriend. He saved me life two times, although he doesn’t know it. The fact he broke my heart in the end doesn’t negate all of that.

but that sounds sad and so do you… let him go..

you sound almost pathetic letting a little boy who obviously didn’t really care about you in the end get the best of you like that..

i wouldn’t even compare him to trash.. honestly..

let him go find a real man..
let me know when you’re ready for one, i know quite a few